11/15

Four weeks!! I'm excited and nervous! Excited for obvious reasons and nervous because I so wanted there to be a noticable difference in how I look. Maybe there will be to him, I have lost 17 lbs since he left, it's just been so up and down for the past several months I can't see the difference anymore.
This week I am the same as last week. Went up and down and ended up the same. It is so frustrating!!! I did work out 5 days this week, Elliptical 3 and Treadmill 2. Friday the Elliptical said that I burned 400 calories in 20 minutes! So, to celebrate we went to Wendy's. I've got to get my mind back into it! Here we go, another week underway!

11/8

5 weeks to go! I worked out 4 days this week. Elliptical twice and treadmill twice. I had planned to do more but it didn't happen...maybe this week. Lost 1/2 lb this week. At this rate I may get to my goal weight by the time I die! I'm trying to just stay in a positive frame of mind for another week. I know that if I let myself start thinking that it's hopeless that I will start on that downward spiral again and I don't want that to happen! I flirt with the idea of tracking calories but just the thought of it makes me want to scream! But, it may be what it takes to get out of this rut. Anyway, I'm going to concentrate on eating good food and continuing to work out 4-5 days this week at least.

11/1

November! Another month gone by and the countdown til Kelly's leave is down to 6 weeks! I can lose like 50 lbs in 6 weeks, right? Just kidding! I am frustrated with myself for not having lost more but am trying to focus on the fact that I have kept off what I have lost so far (except for the couple of lbs up and down). I weight 1 lb more that I did last week. Worked out 1 pitiful day this week. A new month, a new goal! The wii lost it's mind yesterday morning and told me that I had lost 4 lbs overnight! If only!! So this morning it had regained it's facualties and I gained 4 lbs, so I am back to "normal". Anyway, here's hoping for a good week!

10/25

Wow, the last week of October! I'm happy that time seems to be going by quickly although it can slow waaayyy down for the 15 days that Kelly will be home in December! I'm back from a two week vacation. Surprisingly, when I got on the wii my first morning back I had actually lost .2 lbs from the day I left. Then I proceeded to gain about 1.5 over the past few days. Tomorrow it's back to working out. I've got to get with it!

10/4

October! I am so ready for fall this year, ready for cool rainy days, leaves falling, pumpkin decorations, all of it! What to say about this week? I didn't work out at all, choosing to sleep for that extra hour instead. I ate pretty good, Wendy's one day and Muchos burritos another. Down 1/2 pound from last week, better up than down. I'm leaving Wednesday for two weeks away. It will be challenging because I will be away from home, probably eating out more than normal and mentally "on vacation". We'll see how well I did when I get back!

9/27

The end of another month has almost arrived. I'm not where I had hoped to be, but I am still heading in the right direction. Down 3 lbs since last Sunday, and back down to my lowest point, so far. I only worked out two days this week. I woke up with a headache the other days and decided to choose sleep instead. This next month is going to be challenging. I am going on vacation for two weeks and will have to try to eat right and work out away from home. Should be interesting!

9/20

AHHHHHHH!!! (That's me screaming, not a happy ahhh!) I feel so frustrated, almost on the verge of giving up, but I refuse to! I wieghed 1.5 lbs more today than last Sunday. I worked out 2 days this week and had excuses for the rest of the days... mostly that I am just SO tired! I think that I am still trying to get used to the routine of school days again. It's hard to go from staying up til midnight and getting up at 8 to getting up at 5:30. I think part of the problem is that I set too high of goals for myself and yet I feel that if I don't that it's too easy to just slide. I'm not sure what the middle ground is but I'm going to keep looking for it! On to a new week, no looking back!